It's about You Lord, not about me. 3

Isaiah 40:21 Do you not know? Do you not hear? Has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood from the foundations of the earth? Somehow my Lord and God, by Your creative Word at the beginning of time You placed in man the knowledge of You. And we are truly empty without You filling that void that You placed in us right at the beginning of creation. Oh Lord, man chooses, by default, to fill that eternal hole in his soul with temporary creations instead of You, the Eternal One, which he was created for. Romans 1:20 For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. Please fill our hearts with You instead of temporary created things.

It's about You Lord, not about me. 2

Psalm 102:25 Of old you laid the foundation of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands. Dear Father please forgive us for thinking that we know all things when it was You who of old,(beginning of time) laid the foundation of the earth. My only question is where is the foundation that You laid for the earth? On most buildings that man makes you can see the foundation, but we can't see the foundation of the earth. And the heavens are the work of your hands. So the foundation must be Your hands that we can not see. Blessed be Your Holy Hands that are able to do such awesome deeds. I love You Lord.

It's about You Lord, not about me. 1

Dear Heavenly Father, this life is about You, not about me.
Genesis 1:1 In the beginning, In the beginning is talking about the beginning of time, not the beginning of You. You, O Lord, were eternally forever before there was a created thing called time. Lord God, time started when the very first creation came out of Your mouth. Time and creation seem to be the opposite sides of the same coin. You can't have a creation without the beginning,(time), or time without a creation. And neither time or creation exist without You speaking them into existence. Thank You Lord that You are the cause of the beginning of created time.

The Lord Fleet Admiral knows what He is doing.

Lord Jesus, please forgive me for not trusting You. Things are going good right now and I'm waiting for the hammer to drop, because this captain doesn't deserve things to be good. My first mate and crew are doing so much better since my first mate and I are getting on the same page with You. Some how the hammer that I deserve was dropped on You at the cross( blessed be Your Holy Name) which blows my mind. Some how, the real battle is not getting things right with my first mate and crew. The real battle is believing You, that nothing can separate me from Your unconquerable love. As I'm believing this things get better on our ship because that seems to be the natural consequences of believing You. Lord Jesus Please cause our hearts to grow more and more in You, Amen

Admiral of the Discipleship Fleet

Lord Jesus, Thank You for the first mate that You have assigned to my ship. She is one really good looooooken first mate. Thank You for the abilities You have blessed her with. Lord Jesus, if You had not handed her these abilities this ship would have been laying down next to the Titanic at the bottom of the ocean. Thank You for the seven crew members under her. You have obviously blessed this crew with the first mates good looks. Lord Admiral of the Discipleship Fleet thank You for making me the captain of this ship and giving me this awesome crew. Please direct and use our ship in Your Discipleship Fleet.

Discipleship is hard!

Lord Jesus,
Thank You for the hard things You bring us through and thank You for weening us off the world and sin. You said to count the cost of following You, I think that sometimes we don't really count the cost. Like I told my wife yesterday, she is worth it to go through pain and suffering for! Lord Jesus, You on an infinitely greater scale are worth it. I just need my eyes opened again to this awesome truth. Please forgive my blindness and open my eyes once again to Your beauty!!!!

Discipleship

Lord Jesus, right now all I know is that my family and my self need discipleship on how to be a family. I can imagine being on a ship going through some big storms with a crew that has not been trained on how to run or even act on a ship. I can also imagine being on a ship that goes through the same storms on a ship that has been through some discipleship training on how to run a ship and how to act on a ship in such storms. Lord Jesus, please show my family and my self how to run this ship called the Heath family, Amen

Thank You Lord.

Lord Jesus I don't know where things are going but I know that You are in charge of today and the future. Please help me and my family to stay focused on You and Your sovereign reign over every thing. Matthew 6:25-34 "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on, Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying,"What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear? For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Lost in a cloud.

Some days I feel so sure of myself, know where I'm going and know where I'm at. Other days, like today and recently many days like today, I just don't know where I am at or where I am going.

Bye Bye.

Today the Lord and I got rid of a lot of old music that reminds me of my not so bright past at the suggestion of a very close friend, my wife. When Jesus first touched my heart in 1992 the desire for very dark music fell off of me. Since then, like the fool that I can be I have revisited my past by downloading a lot of that music on to our computer. It changes me when I listen to this music. Getting rid of it this time feels like I'm saying goodbye to an old sick friend who will never ever get better. Its never easy to say goodbye but here it goes------goodbye old friends. Here is a vidieo that I like

20/20

Hind site is 20/20 vision even if you are blind. I am afraid of this climb that me and my wife and kids are making up this mountain called the mountain of God. Me as the leader have messed up bad with my first mate and the lead crewman. When you are mean and hurtful to someone or people in a certain way all the time they expect the same reaction out of you and duck or flinch when ever you do something. So, I not only as the leader have to stop acting in a certain way towards my wife and kids, I have to let them let out the pain and be healed from the wounds that I have inflicted. Boy I wish I could have seen what a mess my actions towards my family would bring but hind site is 20/20. Another tough thing is is that only the Lord can heal us which is good because I have proven over and over again how I can mess things up when I try to fix us. Lord Jesus please come and forgive us and heal us as a family.

Reality

Sometimes facing where we are at on the mountain we are climbing is just not a whole lot of fun. When we start our journey towards the mountain all we can see is the top and think, wow, I want to be up there at the top of that mountain. Then when we hit the base of the mountain we know that the work has begun. Our view of the top will be distorted because of the rest of the mountain being in the way. Sometimes it will seem like we are almost there and other times it will seem like we can't make it because its still to far to the top. All I know is that the journey to the top will break you and make you so Lord please help us to finish our journey to the top for your names sake. It is the mountain of God that we are climbing. Romans 5:3-5 More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

The long road

Sometimes I think that we are going to arrive at the end of all our problems and then pow, I'm knocked down again by something I have done or what somebody else has done or just life itself and it seems like the little progress that has been made is lost and its back to the beginning. Mathew 7:13-14 Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. Help me Lord Jesus to not look at the length of the road but at who it is that I am traveling with.

Broken.

I'm so sick of me and my flesh! It seems like I will never get victory over this thing called the fallen human will, that is well and alive in me. Unfortunately I'm not the only one who has to deal with my fallen will, my family does as well as friends. It seems that old saying is true, we hurt the ones we love most. I am so tired of hurting my family in word, deed, and action by yelling, angry looks, not being there for them. And I'm so tired of crying out to friends for help and watching them get dirty with my poop. All I can say is I am truly sorry to my family and friends and thank you Lord Jesus for putting your strength in them to deal with me. Dear Lord Jesus, I desire to be broken before you and them and to be fixed by you before their very eyes so that they may see your glory in fixing me. Thank you Lord for these funny pictures. Please help me to strive for an imperishable crown by loving my family like you do. 1Cor 9:25-27 Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air. But I discipline my body and Keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.

Weaker then I thought.

Yesturday me and my wife sat down and talked to some very close friends about some very hurtful stuff in between me and my wife. It was not easy to sit there and be exposed before our friends about mine and my wife's weakness. I don't think it's ever easy to ask someone for help. Our friends who sat there and listened to me and my wife spill our guts out about each other have been through hard times in there relationships and are now on the other side of some preaty tough stuff. People who have been through tough stuff seem to be the ones to go to when you are going through tough stuff. The Lord seems to know how ugly our hearts are and what people to send at just the right time to expose our uglyness and weakness and to begin administer healing. I'm preaty sure my wife and I still have a long way to go but I do believe the Lord has brought us over a major hurdle.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOb8ihacSM4

Little digs and stabs.

The Lord showed me that the title of this blog is a stab at my wife. On her blog she named off all of the people that she feels has her back in hard situations. I'm not one of them. Well in my hurt, instead of trusting the Lord to exact vengeance if needed I set up this blog with the title The Lord has my six as a stab towards my wife. Please forgive me Lord Jesus for using you to get at my wife and please forgive me wife for stabbing at you from my hurt heart. There is only one place that I know of that will take care of any ones sin, shame, and hurts. The old rugged cross. So I have changed the name of this blog to The LORD is my strength.

Well here goes another blog.

Some times you just have to write about the things that God is doing in your life, and I guess that is were blogging has become so popular. I think its a good thing to share with other people what God is doing in your life so they to my glorify God. God wants us to share him with others, he's obviously to big to keep to our selves.

Thank you Father for your Son, thank you Jesus for bringing us back to the Father, thank you Holy Spirit for touching my heart and opening my eyes to how awesome God truly is.